August 26th - 28th Weekend

My honey suggested a date night and took me to the river for a picnic

Wine, salad, bread, dip and cheese

Bike ride to the river

Rush because we don’t want to miss the sun set

Captured a few memories in my mind and on the camera

Good food, good conversation, good company with my man and my Charlie

Laughed at Charlie, chatted about life and took in some nature

Bike ride home, and drinks with brother and sister

Saturday morning up with the sun

Run with Karli and Charlie

Got caught up on what's going on in my friend’s life

Decided I need to ask more questions and talk less about myself

Wine bottling with my fiancé for our wedding

Bottled wine, tasted wine, picked out labels, made a memory

Got a little drunk in the am

Lunch at Hana with the girls

Indulged

Wasted the rest of the day on the dock with more girls

Great conversation

Enjoyed learning about people who I didn't know very well and hearing their stories

Felt proud to be a woman

Late night bike ride

Church on Sunday

Prayed

Chores

Opened windows, let in a breeze, felt Fall, got excited

Sunday night dinner with friends

Great conversation, great food, great company

Felt blessed

Zonk 

The World Revolves Around Me, Right?

My life has been pretty busy and hectic lately and I fear I have been saying "I don't have time for that" way too much.  What I fear most about my busy schedule, is that I am so focused on what is going on in my life (centre of the universe syndrome) that I am not paying attention to the needs of the people around me.

I was chatting with a friend the other day and asked a question about their life.  This turned into a full out conversation about a pretty serious situation they were dealing with and I didn't know anything about it.

I normally think of myself as a considerate person but I don't think I have been acting this way lately.  Its time for me to turn off the wedding to do list and pay attention to the people around me.

They are what matters, they are they ones who make those special moments special and I am not the only person in the world who needs someone to share their stories with.

After all, the reason I started writing this blog was because I needed to share my thoughts, feelings and ideas.  I should do a better job of listening to others knowing first hand this is a need that I have.

August 19th - 21st Weekend

Busy, exciting work day

Home for a nap, exhausted

Finish sewing Tyler's costume for the 70's birthday party

Enjoyed getting dressed up in a costume 

Danced with my niece Marley at the party

Fell in love with Marley a little more

Thought about what it would be like to have my own child

Night ride in the truck, wind in my hair, loved my life

Saturday morning, farmers market, BLT's, chores, run

Get dolled up for Steve & Ashley's wedding

Admired my handsome fiance

Fell in love a little more

Enjoyed a full day with some of my favourite people

Ate until I was full, danced until my feet hurt and drank until I went to bed

Sunday lunch date with my sweetheart, river, sunshine and poutine

Afternoon with my fav neighbour

Got silly, got girly, laughed a lot 

Bike ride and pizza with friends and family

Wait out the storm with one more drink

Home for a snuggle

Hit the pillow hard

Control Freak

Tyler and I were on our way to run some errands and he was driving as he normally does when we go somewhere together.  There were two routes to get to our destination  and as we approached the first option I felt the urge to yell out "Turn left here it's faster, don't you know where we are going?"  

This was one of those rare moments when I processed my thoughts inside before blurting them out and decided it wasn't really that big of a deal, we would get there either way.

This intense feeling to control all the situations in my life has increased in the last five years.  I am the oldest of 3 girls and have always been a little on the bossy side.  I like to take care of others and organize things my way but even more so lately.

I have begun to feel out of control if certain chores are not taken care of before I do something fun.  I normally do my cleaning on the weekend but if I know I am going to have a busy weekend I must get the cleaning done prior to Friday, otherwise I will obsess over the fact that my house is not in order.

I am wondering why this urge to control all things around me is magnified lately?  

Food for thought, thanks for listening.

August 12th - 14th Weekend

Went to my Mom's friend's house to look at wedding invitation options 

Stopped by brothers house to pick up niece

Had a little chat 

Felt tired

Marley and Ash came home

Loaded so much baby stuff and baby into my little Sunfire

Drove extra careful

Unloaded baby and stuff 

Dinner with sister Sara and Marley

Marley got messy 

Marley got tired 

Bath time, fun time

Walk with Sara, baby and Charlie

Beautiful night and great conversation with my sister

Couch, wine, zonked

Saturday morning excited

Over the bridge with mom and sister

Remember mom is an awful driver

Hunt for dresses

Try on dresses

Get sidetracked and shop for other stuff

Eat lunch

Get in a tiff with sister

Find what we are looking for, amazing

Head back home feeling like we got some things accomplished

Snuggle with Charlie

Dinner

Walk with Charlie

Impromptu drinks with friends in the garage 

We chatted and the dogs played

Watched a big storm and got a little scared 

Walked home

Lazy sunday morning

Phone chats and a little planning

Registry round two

Overwhelmed

Grocery's

Chat with Kar about her weekend and got super excited about my bachelorette

Felt lucky for the people I have in my life

Indulged in pasta  

Domestic activities

Chill 

Excited Today

Today I got really excited about my wedding and all the awesome things I am going to do with my friends and family prior to the wedding.

I am going to have 4 showers and a bachelorette party, am I the luckiest girl in the world or what?  Hell yes I am, mostly because I am marrying an amazing man who loves me so good and I love him the same.  Also, because I am blessed with people who want to celebrate this exciting time in my life by throwing me a party.

So the reason I got excited today was because I purchased a few little treats for my special events.  

One thing you will learn about me is that I love fashion!!!  Any fashionista who loves to get dressed up, also loves a good hunt.  I found lost's of treasures on my hunt today in particular some beautiful skirts for $8 each.  Yes you read that correctly $8.

As soon as I know those items are mine, my mind starts racing.  I am putting outfits together in my head with items I have at home, accessorizing and sometimes even thinking of pieces I don't have that would make an outfit even more perfect (add it to the list).  One game that I love to play is to think about how the outfit will transition from summer to fall to winter to spring.  It's a real big score if I can wear it all year round.

Anyways, my upcoming wedding events is my excuse for shopping today.  I wanted to share my excitement for the events and to costume design for such special moments.

P.S. Cher (from the movie Clueless) once said "I never trust mirrors, I always take Polaroid's).  

Time Changes Everything

Just like in any relationship, time will change things.  In the last five years I have particularly noticed how this is effecting my friendships.  I have always been a creature with a few very close girlfriends, probably no more than 5.  These are the girls I can call at any time of day with a joy or tears and they will listen and care.  

When I think back on the last 10 years I notice that I have almost gone through stages of my life with certain girls.  Then something happens and that friendship transitions into something it wasn't and a new person enters my life to take me through another phase.  Am I a bad friend?

My oldest best friend (I say this because I have a best friend that I have met in my adult life) and I are currently going through some different things in our lives.  In some areas of our lives we are experiencing complete opposite situations and in others we are at the same place.  We have also recently expressed different opinions about specific values, does this mean we are no longer compatible?  That thought breaks my heart, can't we believe different things but still love and respect each other?  I would hope so.

My fear is that, like past friendships that have changed because of a shift in either mine or my friends phase of life - that our friendship is headed for a shift.

I love this friend unlike I have loved any other friend, which is why it is a fear.  Maybe because I am conscious of past changed friendships, we will be able to push past the diversity and grow our friendship into something even stronger.

This whole cycle could just be me.  Maybe I push people away when they don't agree with what I believe.

I will keep you posted.

August 5th - 7th Weekend

Friday afternoon wedding registry at an awesome art store

Bumped into a friend at the store, exchanged small talk

Friday night boat ride with our favourite neighbours

Island chill, cold drinks, chips, music and a little bit of silly

Remembered that being on the water at night is so magical, took a snapshot in my mind

Relaxed

Saturday morning at the Farmers Market

Got inspired by food, people and flowers

Got excited

Got coffee

Did a friends makeup for an acting gig

Chit chat

Errands, rushing prep for Kay and Andy's wedding

Saw love, felt love, gave love

Celebrated, ate, enjoyed, laughed, cried, drank, danced

Late night bonfire on the beach with my two favourite guys, my fiance and dog

Enjoyed sounds and smells of the beach

Remembered moments from childhood

Sunday morning tea and toast with mom and dad

Stressed about wedding

Great acoustic music on our drive home to Corunna

Relaxed

Chores, purging stuff, tea, little bit of work

Time to get ready for another week and bank a bunch more memories of an excellent summertime weekend!

Meet Audrey

Hi,  I'm Heather Audrey.  I am a young women in my mid twenties with a lot of exciting things going on in my life right now.  I am getting married in two and half months, I have an amazing job that presents exciting opportunities everyday and an pretty eventful social life.

Recently I have noticed that I have been spending a lot of time inside my head thinking about what I should or shouldn't do, regretting something I said, regretting my past and feeling like past experiences or lack there of, are holding me back from things in my future.

I am so happy with my life and excited about tomorrow, but I am struggling with my thoughts.  I am even beginning to think "wow you shouldn't be thinking like this.

Ok, so now you know I am officially crazy but the point of this ramble is that while I wait to see a Therapist and unleash my craziness on them, I am going to share it with you. 

This blog is a place where I plan to share the thoughts inside my head in hopes that it will offer me some release from myself (or as I like to call her, Audrey)

I believe its in our nature to want to share our story with others and to be herd.  Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the thoughts I want to share with others and I feel it will overwhelm them as well, so I keep it inside.  I have learned from my past experiences that keeping certain thoughts inside is not healthy and they can only stay bottled for so long.  They want to be released and sometimes they can emerge in a very ugly way.

From now on I am going to share my story, even if its scary at times. 

Until next time…..

Meet Audrey

Hi,  I'm Heather Audrey.  I am a young women in my mid twenties with a lot of exciting things going on in my life right now.  I am getting married in two and half months, I have an amazing job that presents exciting opportunities everyday and an pretty eventful social life.

Recently I have noticed that I have been spending a lot of time inside my head thinking about what I should or shouldn't do, regretting something I said, regretting my past and feeling like past experiences or lack there of, are holding me back from things in my future.

I am so happy with my life and excited about tomorrow, but I am struggling with my thoughts.  I am even beginning to think "wow you shouldn't be thinking like this.

Ok, so now you know I am officially crazy but the point of this ramble is that while I wait to see a Therapist and unleash my craziness on them, I am going to share it with you. 

This blog is a place where I plan to share the thoughts inside my head in hopes that it will offer me some release from myself (or as I like to call her, Audrey)

I believe its in our nature to want to share our story with others and to be herd.  Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the thoughts I want to share with others and I feel it will overwhelm them as well, so I keep it inside.  I have learned from my past experiences that keeping certain thoughts inside is not healthy and they can only stay bottled for so long.  They want to be released and sometimes they can emerge in a very ugly way.

From now on I am going to share my story, even if its scary at times. 

Until next time…..