The last six weeks have been extremely busy, productive and fun. I have been trying to stay focused at work so that I can begin maternity leave knowing that all of my clients, projects and efforts are left at the perfect spot. My weekends have been filled with family time and work on our home as we celebrate and prepare for our baby. In the midst of ploughing through my daily to do list, I have forgotten a few things, I haven't been making very much time for myself and I definitely have not been spending as much time with God, reflecting and in prayer.
Today I hit a wall and officially accepted the fact that I am overwhelmed and I can't do everything I am trying to do on my own. I have been so focused on just trying to get everything done, I have not been concerned about how I feel or enjoying this phase of my life. When I bowed my head for a moment after feeling a little like I had nothing left in the tank today, all I could think was, "I need Your help", and then the tears came, and a sense of relief washed over me.
I believe there will always be times in my life where I need to put my head down and work a little harder or turn up the speed but when I go into these phases of life, I can't forget to still take them in stride with God by my side. I want all of my efforts to be work God wants me to do and I want to always work and play in a way that honours Him but I am finding that living this way requires me to step into the armour he has provided me with, each day.
I am learning everyday how to live a more purposeful life, today I received a lesson when I least expected it, at my desk after a work conflict so I know the Lord is always with me. I just need to make sure I lean on Him daily, acknowledge His presence and make Him part of all my work, decisions, actions and thoughts.
I know I can do anything when I put my life in His hands, I just need to remember to do that and stop trying to do everything on my own.